Theres nothing that a heart to heart talk cant settle...
living proof that is my life
though this weekend has been rather exciting
(just ask a fat uncle from tm)
it has been rather frightening too.
everyone says that i have changed.
FOR THE WORST!
That coming from my parents n girlfriend
or even my brother is not really scary....
But coming from one of my SUPER BENG friends....
thats really saying something right....
HAVE I CHANGED?
something that i must take control of...

Think its gonna be over soon
i mean leaving it up to a coin
thats not very good for me is it?
things are really getting bad for me aint it?

FUCK!

Dont want you to go .... HEAR that
but it seems that we have really grown apart
if theres a chance
i will work hard
but if fate decides.....
then....
i guess theres nothing to say.........
is there.....



LONELINESS BECKONS ME.....

Finally its over
slept for ages last night
feeling empowered today
meeting Fi later to get frontpage
PIMP up my fucking blog man
feeling so great though i may have to resubmit
but at least i finished this half of the year....

3:48 AM


still awake and typing

promised myself that i would go to sleep soon...
but i cant...
just taking a break from it all right now....
just another few more hours to submission
i know that it's a pain that i myself have brought about
but can i help it if i work more productive this way?
last min work is always nicer looking
dont know why
dont care why
just as long as i get the bloody work done...
next term i gotta really take things to hand and mind
dont leave everything to the last second again
really
had i not experieanced the same thing for the prelims last year
this year i would have fucking cramped
and well most probable join indy in the ranks of the recently schooless
there i go again.
bitching about a problem that i myself have caused...
is it me or have i become more bitchy?
is that good for a guy?
or have i started to turn....
turn into one of them himbos?

FUCK no....
not in this bloody life time
and the next too.....


fuck ....
cant tahan already
thought i could just take a break for now...
but my bed is seducing me as type now...
and lustfully i shall answer the sweet sweet calling of my bed...



I SLEEP.....

sigh....