My leg HURTS
my brain is dead...
doing research now for a class later on
life is really shitty when you leave things to the very last instant
Perhaps i should Change a little
Do things the moment they hit my desk
but then i wouldnt be writing this now would i...
so perhaps i wont.
Life is a bull
you gotta keep it intense
waiting for your next move
but unable to anticipate it
so that when the moment is right
and i charges at you
you can grab it by the proverbial horns
that or its balls
squeeze them till not one drop of life is left in him
and then eat the motherfucker whole

yesterday did ZOMBIE again
this time unplugged
must admit that we are making some progress
from just the basic tune
we managed to get some solo parts out
and instead of just strumming
we did have some plucking too
just one problem
i cant sing when im plucking...
ah well...
no one said this would be easy...
the life of a rock star never is...

eeeewwwwww

gave me chills just to type that...

ROCK ROCK ROCK

Today was really not a let down
totally coolish if i do say so myself
went to school
went for lunch
went to JAM with the class
well not all la
but enough for a nice little session
though we had problems at the start
smells like my arse more than teen spirit
but in the end we all became ZOMBIES instead
i wonder how today would have ended up
had i not known how to play that song...
i didnt know the lyrics
so i just mumbled by way through the parts i didnt know
i know la...
how could i not know the fucking lyrics to ZOMBIE
but sometimes its like that
the most basic song
is also the most easily forgotten song...
well , for me that is
definately a worth while day...
cant wait till the next one...
gotta thank SHERM for introducing us there..
good rates too 12 bucks an hour
definately cheaper than KTV

To RUDZ eh... bro kau maiyan drums solid la
machum itu bling 182 orang la !!!

FINALLY IT OVER
For bloody days ive slaved over the projects that i had to hand in
and i totally hate them like fuck shits
and now i only have one left
but alls ok
i like this one
photoshop
easy easy easy la
pat pat said that i did good work
said to keep it up
i say im always good
just see if im luck or not
....
shit
shit
shit

one more month to go till holidays
need to rest
need cash to rest
when are my projects gonna start rolling...
hint hint ah yee
give me more more more!
i wanna travel when im done with this tagging shit
2 weeks to go
cnb here i come

fuck fuck fuck
tired
sleepy
need to find a place for my head

tomorrow might be going for band practice
hope we can make it
the high light of my week

need to destress
knew that studying was hard
just not this hard

i love my life...
busy as a bee
no sleep
projects due
but still i love it

as long as i am not in chains
i love it

The truth is that all my work is last minute
I don't deny this
but at least I get things done right?
there are things that I really wanna do better
like internal and external drawings
really I do
but its kinda hard when I get lured away
like I'm being lured away from my work now
haha
needless to say I will be rushing another project later
like a few hours before I have to rush off to school
but the good news is that its the last for this week
tomorrow its to practice and to the art fair which i have no idea
how to pronounce or spell....




WHERE DID YOU GO

to a special you
dont go ok?
somethings wrong with life and i know it
its not treating you as it should
i wanted to make everything better when i came back
but it seems that nothing has changed
i wish it had
but things seem worse than before
cant reach to you now
you always seem so much distant
and so does she
i know that this should not be
but i cant help it at all
your all drifting away from me
what can i do
i cling on the best that i can
but somehow i feel its pointless
its like im no longer a part of the tree anymore
like a stranger in a familliar house...
knowing everything about the house
but owning and relating to nothing....

Every tuesday and wednsday i dread these classes...
but still every week i drag myself down to them knowing that i will produce
sub-standard results..
i wonder why i bother at all
everything is so bloody confusing !
i really did not expect myself to hate this classes so much
but i do...
could it be because i dont see any progress at all
argh....
i expect so much more
and yet all that i can come out with is so.... urgh
wont even think of it...
can bear the sight of it in my mind... yucks



MORE ON MY DAY

had quite a good chat with dad today after class
felt so well ...
sad
sad that we are no longer a family
but life is like that really
you cant ever get everything you want in life
everytime i see him
he seems to age just alittle more
the whole time we were talking
i wanted to grab him by his shoulders
shake him and shout at him
"who allowed you to grow older!!!!"
or even
"stop your bloody ageing at once!"
how i wish he could be young forever
you know
when i was a kid
he taught me everything i knew
fishing
lessons about life
ns stories
you know the usual father and son stuff
then during my teenage years
he was my enemy
and my closest friend
you know what i mean?
my ns days
he was the only person to understand me
whenever i got involved in fights
got punishments
and charged
he was there
he understood
and now
slowly
it feels like i am losing him
after the divorce
after i went into prison
everything is different
each time we meet
i feel so afraid
that one day i may have to live my life without him
i know that i am not the only person with this problem
but anyother person with this problem knows the pain
you feel like the sun will never rise
you feel like you are in the shadows of a never ending valley
sometimes the darkness inside you threatens to overwhelm you
eat you whole in your bitterness
thats me now
i think my true friends can sense the darkness within me
i think that soon i will be devoured by this feelings
dont know when...

EXCERCISE CAUTION



Time to really kick back and ralax..
work is really getting to me man
came back on friday and hardly did anything else
but hit the bloody books

well not really books
but projects

i'd done alot already
but some got somehow misplaced into the trash
so had to start from scratch

had quite a hectic 3 days
doing work is like that you know
you cant tell where the bloody time goes

so went to school today with 3 projects in hand
and i really mean in hand
2 big paper bags full of it

hate hate hate janet
really do hate her
i mean not in a bad way
just that her voice n teaching habits really suck
she's not a bad person...
just well....
naggy?
overtly naggy?
overwhelmingly naggy?

need i say more?

I THINK SINGAPOREANS NEED TO BE MORE FUCKING POLITE

Went into the mrt today with so many bags
i gave way to the passengers coming out
just like the good person that i am
got pushed from behind by this ah beng
and he bloody kicked my bloody fucking projects!
wanted to bust some courtesy in to his fucking head
with nothing but my trusty fists

but being the good person that i am i let that
fuck head pass

and since we are on this topic, who thinks that aunties
are getting more and more agressive when it comes to
taking busses and mrts?
Something fishy is going on in singapore
whatever happened to the bloody lion that promoted
courtesy?

And they say that us youngsters are getting out of hand

sometimes in a bus i get looks from them just coz i talk
abit too loudly
or just say some stuff that are taboo
sometimes i hear them whisper " Aiyoh youngsters these days ah.."
i just feel like saying to them

eh ah soh ah le nang ma si an ni kuan ma nag nor kia tuai teoi nag dui ooh lo ah si le nang kwa bei lo ki , li nang eh tai ji ma, ji tao nin jia tuai ah? mm si dui mai kao peh kao bu la.... lao eh mai ar neh ti ki , kia ji peng dui ho ....

Dragging mmyself to school again today

dreading this day for a bloody long time now
ive done nothing at all for this lesson
my paper's like blank
just my main pic and some splashes of accidental doing of chinese ink
my demon head is done using chinese ink with the black on black method
looks funny to me
my teddy bear is still not done now...
hope this will do


All my life i have never been afraid of art ,
no matter how much the work load or how hard the topic
may be ... But lately , i feel really supressed by my surroundings
my art pieces lack the charecter that my past pieces have
could it be that i am slipping ...

dread dread dread

sigh sigh sigh

shit shit shit

time to go....

Woke up today real early
Dragged my poor old butt down to school
Didnt bring anything but myself for class
Realised that it was a holiday
But still had class...

DAMN

Went through the day tying strings to cover a spiral stairway
Spent half the time trying to figure out how in the world did this relate to interior design

Made myself stay through out the day
yes Tying strings....

Rina called to remind me that she was comfortablely cat napping on her bed
while we were fighting the forces of nature ...


The sun shone brightly
drenching me with my own sweat
why does it not shine like this when i go to the beach?


Later the cold wind blew the rain all over me as i was at the canteen
with alan and fi ....

tired tired tired

still have gotta go back tomorrow

wonder for what...

still have no clue what we are supposed to be learning from this activity
if it is to bring us closer to out peers in the 1st and 2nd levels,
next time i suggest we just have a barbeque and games...

MORE ATTANDANCE for sure
MORE FUN definately
makes more of a " POINT "

Empty
empty
empty

tomorrow is a new day and yet still i feel empty
schools been going on for weeks now, but still , somehow i feel like i dont belong here.
Some how, i feel that my place is where i was.
Funnny huh, we spend all our time lusting for freedom and when we finally get it, we dont know what to do with it.

Empty
empty
empty

i gotta fit in soon
else im gonna be the one to bite the dust again....

OMG i did not just see that last night
i cannot for the life of me imagin what kind of
person could be so bloody offensive to post something
as perverted as that on my space!
I know that it is his "my space"
but for goodness sakes you dont get a space
at my space for your own viewing pleasure right?
unless you are some sick perverted freak...
I had to boil my eyes this morning to decontaminate them
befor i went out!
and last night i dreamt that i was being chased by
a justin timberlake wannabe cowboy with dreadlocks
and a female voice who was shouting at me " stop stop!!!
you've gotta come back and spank me!!!!"
Of all the peverted things that he could do....
OMG what a total fag....

testing test test test test
hello any one here?
hello....