the fates they tempt and torture
collided into each other
in the void
the stillness and darkness
to create some form of light
sparks illuminate the ruins here
dust rots within this choice not mine to make
listen to me cries the silent beating
nay cries another from within my head
listen only to me
like an angel and demon they battle
fighting over what attention i can give
each proving a point
each not proving anything
in the chaos that consumes
like a black flame upon my beating heart
feeding on the very blood that drips into it
....
the choices the routes are simple
and yet so complicated
...
the implications unbearable
everything leads to just one question
just what the fuck do i want ....

i want to slit my wrist and end it all

Lifes a bore
lifes a chore
lifes never easy
until you reach the end of the line....
when will mine come

Whats the choice to make......
burbone or coke
funny how we end up with coke rather than burbone than coke

OF LOVE AND HATE

Brotherhood
loyalty
what drew me to this band of brothers
is now what pushes me away

Where has the love gone
i not saying all here are bad
just that those that are supposed to be worthy of trust
ARE JUST NOT THAT

I tire of this meaningless life
thought it was what i have been loyal to
but now its just pointless

When a brother can cheat another of 9 k
when he does not contact one for ages
when the only reason he calls is when he is in need of cash

All that he said in prison was a fucking lie
all just a front

Cant believe that i trusted him

Now he calls coz someone is coming out
i dread it
i told them i dont wanna continue this life
its just pointless
but somehow i dont think i myself can let go
the only release seems to be death
because this is all i know!
What else do i live for if not for that?

Born to be this way
do i have another route?

People say that i do
but in my heart i know
that i can ammount to anything in this world
but in my heart i will always look back and cherish the days when everything in the group was good
I long for the good old days
i long for everything that we had done
i long for the love the brotherhood that we had
my heart breaks to see what we all have become....
a few good brothers is all that takes to lift my heart
to give me a hope that all that we had fought for was not a lie
Siang pat kelvin daryl Qh ect.....
but other than them,
.....
it breaks my heart to say it
but it seems that we are all lost
or rather we have lost our beloved
SignifiKanT ........

it is destroyed by some motherfuckers
some bastards who only think for themselves.....





I WANNA STOP THIS

PRESERVE THE GOOD MEMORIES
ERASE THIS BLEEK PRESENT
AND CREATE A NEW BRIGHTER FUTURE

I GOT A TATT!!!!
Well.... a touch up job la
SAMMY is no more....
that old battered up dragon bitch is finally gone from my skin
no more will i remember her....
she who caused me the initial heart break then 5 years of laughter from friends and family
now a newer dragon is born from her ashes just like how i was reborn
SHINOBI.....
lol<<<<<
Itches like fucking hell though....
THANKS JP! .... looking forwards to finish the tatt up with some jap stuff.....

Ruddy left to go DJ at zara
his DJ friend is DRUNK
how CAN you be a house DJ and get drunk?
I mean if i were a house DJ i'd be drinking every night
so how to get drunk?
I'd be freaking impossible to get drunk

but what-the-hey
Ruddy has left to the party

im still at rul's place now.....
finished up what i could
now just waiting for the bus service to start
thinking just how FUCKED we are gonna be
when school starts and we still havent got anything done

CANT BE THE FREAKING LAUGHING STOCK
wont let that happen to this group

I NEED TO SLEEP

tired like fuck now

wanted to get some research done now
but i guess sleep is the stronger master right now


ZZZZZZzzzzzz