TIME FOR THOUGHTS




3 months is a long time, and yet some how it has slipped by so quickly.
with the turn of an eye i find myself gazing upon the start of another academic year.
Never have i felt this longing this strange lust for the school year to begin.
I guess with age come a certain wisdom and lust for knowledge.
3 months without school has been rather.... mild....
I did not imagine it this way really....
Actually a lot has happened .
A lot and little at the same time.
As it was feared by my close friends,
we did stray far from each other this holidays, much like the previous ones
but this time we remained in constant contact.
The only two constant people i ever really go out with is POH and that irritating Jap girl....NA
( HA GOT YOU THERE EH...... i still love you though....but not as much as i love poh)
POH and i have moved to another level in our relationship......
since my parents and family already know of her and have seen her at least once,
the improvement was on her side.....
Now her close relatives know of me..... well all save for her dad.....
but thats a GREAT improvement.....
I got another sister too.... and her name is kettle black
I put on a show outside MOS which earned me a black eye and a rather "law abiding" foe.... (if you know what i mean...."bang bang")
But other than all that i feel that this 3 months have been rather great....
Oh yeah i got to serve my nation too...... i feel so patriotic now......WHERES MY MONEY

ARMOUR









The men of the black beret
the least heard of in the singapore military
well at least to me when i was a kid.
When i received the letter from MINDEF stating that i was to
report to KRANJI CAMP to 41 SAR i had absolutely no idea at all
what armour was about.
Friends told me that i would be a trooper chasing after tanks
others told be that i would be carrying additional ammo for the vehicular weapons
what-ever i was told. it was not good.
However as time passed,
the longer that i was in the unit
the more i felt proud of belonging to it.
There is a strange feeling
belonging to armour brings about to a person.
A sense of belonging
I am sure that this happens to all vocations
but it is just special to armour.
The most memorable moment in my army life was not ORD,
it was this day .....6 months after i enlisted,
after 3 months of BMT and 3 months of Trades Course ...
We were turned out just before dawn for a mini route march into the training area behind our camp.
The beaten dusty rocky route there was lined with candles every few feet.
As we marched to our destination we belted army songs cheers and poems at the
top of our lungs.
The early morning mist and the dark purple sky brought about the very best in us.
We marched with our SBO( Skeletal battle order) and our riffles.......
our stomaches in and chests out.
Each step taken in confidence and pride.
When we finally reached our destination, the command to halt was given.
We complied as one. The soles of our feet contacting with the ground at the very same time.
The BANG was so loud its ghost reverberated through the area.
The place as i remember was some-what of a open patch right next to a reservoir of sorts.
Peaceful and calming, its beauty brought a tear to my eye.
Our CO(commander) gave a speech about our accomplishments........
and then at about the same time as dawn breaking......
our section platoon and company commanders walked through our ranks....
each of them presented us with our prize.......our "right"....
a gift that we had bought for ourselves........
A BLACK BERET.
We had finally earned the right to don the black beret....
YES we are armored
we storm the front-lines
we are the first to reach and last to leave.
we are the Calvary ...............

I HATE RICH PEOPLE

I do try my best to bring you out
i do
i hate seeing you like this baby
and when i cant do anything about the way you feel
when you are in your moods
i really wanna just hit myself
i feel as if im not good enough
not able to provide you the security and
the comfort that you need
i know that now your really worried about you schooling
and believe me i am too
i really dont know what to do
i am at a lost for words
a lost for actions
close to tears at times
at times totally in tears......
i really wanna help you i do
but circumstances prevent me
im not born rich like those rich bastards
i just make do with what i can
......

MOS FIGHT NIGHT

HOSAN LEONG IS DA BOMB.....



http://profile.imeem.com/ZRjjVx/music/ZBwyJoD-/hossan_leong_new_singapore_song/



Need i say more?

A Saint Till The Very End


My dear friend asked me a favor sometime last week during our IN CAMP TRAINING at SUNGI KEDONG CAMP And being the great friend that i am i promised him that i would do everything within my power to get it done for him.
He asked me to his baptism.......
Can you imagine that?
That he would want me at such a sacred occasion!
i was more than happy to oblige him!
I mean its a private occasion for a person
one where he would want his close friends
and people who have made an impact on his life to be next to him
and i am honored to be considered by him to be part of this occasion
where by he is blessed ...
where by he promises his life to christ
where by everything is made new for him
god bless him man...
i just have something to say to him
in fact i did sms him this messaged
" I wear my cross on my arm, now its your turn to wear yours ..... i hope you wear it together with your heart...... on your sleeve"



NOTICE THE TOWEL HE IS USING.......... ARMY SURPLUS ..... lol













Funny how a friendship that started out on the wrong foot ended up lasting so long....
as i recall...... my very first words to him were screamed at the top of my voice
"eh..... you think what..... A - Level big F**K ah?"
.....
.......
now i guess i have to take that all back and rephrase it....
so my dear friend kian tiao..... you think UNI big F**K ah....
!!!!!






But wait a min........







I'M sorta in a UNI too....

LOVE AND HATE COLLIDE


As promised to NANA these are the few pictures we had taken on our night trip to the ministry of sound.

A TIME TO SERVE




A few more hours till im off to do my duty
a duty that all singaporean males should do
(and females too)
You can say that it is in some way our birth-right
although many of us complain about it right out
we're just too bloody shy to admit that we love it!
The great outdoors are seductive
Just the sense of being in the dense jungle is really something
that you have to be there to know what it feels like
the freedom that just takes your heart and holds you there
the freshness of the morning
the feeling of being someone to be reckoned with
you see in the army we're all something
someone, part of a well programmed killing machine
each man has his part and is respect in it and depended on
the lives of his soldier brothers are in his hands.......
there we have a purpose
there our lives , no matter where we come from or what our histories may be,
hold meaning....
there we become men






IM so gonna miss my baby

Watched a movie today
"the EX"
with baby

then it was off to HMV to meet her friend BEN


Then off to meet my brothers


Though i was from a different background from them all
but still they treated me like one of their group
i know it was not much but i did give wan culture a birthday gift
"18" bucks from my own pocket
it was after all his birthday
yet he treated us like it was our birthday!
Baby was very shocked that my bros behaved the way they did
coz thugs aint supposed to behave this way
well
there are roses amongst the thorns thats what i always say

whats important is that baby knows and accepts who i am
and that she knows that i will not endanger her or myself
and that i will not be stupid enough to leave her out here
i will not be stupid enough to go to prison again

Wan said to me today
why be so stupid?
fights selling drugs cigarettes and all the black market stuff
are things of the past!
Now its time to live for those who we care about!
i know its a cliche coming from him
someone whos been in and out of prison
so many times already
but look at him now
he's back with his wife who divorced him
he's with his daughters who he loves
he's got a stable job working daily
coming back from work everyday
he's got close friends who love him and whom he loves
(me included!)
and i think to myself
this is the life that i always thought that being a thug was about
the LOVE and not the money
the kinship and not the fame
the bonding and not the glory.....


I shall vanish from active duty into the arms of my friends...


I shall not be one to be absorbed into the world of darkness again




i live i thirst for life!






and i love my baby

THAT GIRL


Can i give her the happiness that i should ?
Or am i just not the right person?
Could it be true that i am the person some one meets before she meets the one?
inside my mind i really am insecure
i'm as insecure as anyone else if not more than that
baby im sorry from the things that may have made u angry

Cupid's Chokehold

Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It's been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma I fell in love again
It's safe to say I have a new girlfriend

And I know it sounds so old
But cupid got me in a chokehold
And I'm afraid I might give in
Towel's on the mat, my white flag is wavin'

I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And AlkaSeltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain't love then I don't know what love is

We even got a secret handshake
And she loves the music that my band makes
I know I'm young but if I had to choose her or the sun
I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

(ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It's been a while since we talked last
And I'm tryin' hard not to talk fast
But dad I'm finally thinkin' I may have found the one
Type of girl that will make you way proud of your son

And I know you heard the last song
About the girls that didn't last long
But I promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name (ba ba da da)

I love the way she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain't love then I don't know what love is (ba ba da da)

It's gonna be a long drive home
But I know as soon as I arrive home
And I open the door
Take off my coat and throw my bag on the floor
She'll be back into my arms once more for sure.
Like...

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man I swear
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like you

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

EEEEEEEEEEEEE YUCKS

Somethings covering the eyes of singaporean producers
i came across this somewhere
http://ch8.mediacorptv.com/heygorgeous/hunkrating.php?uid=604
i find it really repulsive
i am no beauty myself but
for heavens sakes
i guess that for a television show they should select role models
for society / teens (since this is a show for teens)
but NO they had to just go for superficial stuff
popularity and shit like that
making the rich and well known even richer and well known
i know that it is after all a beauty show of sorts but at least show some concern
about the image that they will project should a bad apple suddenly be cast in the lime light
i mean what if some participant happens to be a super psyco mother fucker?
what if he turns out to be a fink a cheater a ballsless son of a motherless cow
what if he turns out to be a cheater of friends and girlfriends
what if he turns out to be a real mother fucking back stabbing son of a nameless animal?
now that would be horrible exposure to the young minds....
i mean now that teen idol worship is like so crazy
singapore idol finalist are worshipped like gods....
not that its a bad thing
but imagine this
if a finalist was a frigging drug pusher.....
what image would that project to a person who knew?
DRUGS IS COOL?
so in this case being a self-proclaimed gangster/ thug is cool?
i got one thing to say to this linked motherfucker
U AINT WALKED A MILE IN MY SHOES U THINK U CAN MAKE IT MOTHER FUCKER
U AINT WORTH SHIT IN STREET CRED MAN U AINT NOTHING THAT U CLAIM....
AND IT AINT WORTH A SHIT TRYING TO PROVE U WRONG COZ U'D JUST CALL THE COPS
U FUCKING PUSSY