DIVAN was absolutely divine

i reached at 5.30 and left around 1.30
i was not fatigued till i reached home!
the crowd yesterday was mild
but the other partimers there told me that friday
it would be rather wild
as in packed
my fellow workers were totally helpful
didnt bully the new guy or anything
even the full timer was really nice!

Let me do a little rundown on the people i met
in order of appearance

JESS - full timer @ Divan
over all big sis who really was approachable.
not like the stuck up full timers that you hear about all
the time from your working friends

JIA LI - She was not working for Divan but rather
working at Divan as a promoter for one of the in house
beverage (alcoholic that is) really out spoken who engaged in
a really interesting conversation regarding china's standered of living :
average pay check

JOY - Fellow parttimer NUS graduate bubbly and fun to chat with
probably a good drinker from the tales that they told over the quite period
where no customers came in. Also she washed most of the dishes lol
i know i should have been the one to do it but you know la
first day la.... i should milk my blur qualities to the max before some one figures out
that any blur cock can was the dishes.... lol

JEFF - The person who i spoke to most during our work time together.
also the person who really made a lasting impression on me that day.
this guy is the text book work-a-holic and with reason that is....
He is chasing his dream and has managed to do what we all dream of.
Enjoying his life while living out his maximum potential.
he is a partime student , studying accounts , working full time during the day
at an accounts firm, part time at Divan and also at a deliveries company.
on average he works 7 days a week.... now talk about time management.
He told me that in everything we do we must have a goal to work to otherwise life
no longer has meaning, we must push ourselves to the limit at time in order to
keep life meaningful and also we must have a realistic plan for our lives other wise
with all the hard work we're doing we'd be mad, pushing so hard forwards with out a
finish line to reach....

I GOT A JOB


Like final-farmer-farmering-ly......(trying not to use the F word too much)
Working for this place in UE2 called The Connoisseur Divan.



I really cant believe that i got it.
I really owe it all to my babe and god
my Babe for giving me the courage to go for it
and God for providing me the chance.

I encountered shit loads of problems looking for jobs
and sad to say i didnt handle them very well
i vented my frustrations on a great sister of mine and now
shes kinda pissed at me
i know that i was wrong to do so....

But on a brighter note...
after nearly getting trapped in a MLM company,
almost getting cheated at a "tuition" agency
i decided to have one final last go at fishing for a job
called up this place called BIZ-TRADING for a job and they got back to me...

And now i have a job


I went to the interview today
and what i saw on the interview paper nearly put me out of my good mood
the final question was
.......
have you ever been charged in court
and have you ever consumed drugs
......
I'm telling you....if POH had not been there i'd have just uped and gone
somehow the manager seemed ok with that....
and now i have a job.....

YES

neh neh neh neh.... theres nothing here

DUE TO A CHANGE IN UNDERSTANDING OF HER HEART I FIND THIS POST TO BE UTTERLY REDUNDANT AND WRONG>>>> THEREFORE I HAVE POSTED THIS TO CLEAR OFF THE NEGATIVE COMMENTS ON THE PREVIOUS ONE>>>>>>>

DEAR RINA


I'm sorry that your angry with POH
but im afraid that your put off with the wrong person
you should be pissed at me
I know that POH and you made a promise
but i really was bored to shits that day and didnt want to go home that early
and there was nothing else worth my time that day really.
as you know i've really been down these few day.
friends who i thought were great turned out not as great
as i wanted them to be
close ones suddenly feel so so cold
must be the time that we spent apart
but truely i am sorry for how you feel ok?
but look at it this way
i dont complain when you and poh have your outings
you know that i would die for you just as much as i would die for POH
so why cant you love the two of us the same?
i mean i know you'll always be closer to POH
but still cant we do things together just like the way the 3 of us
do before me and her got together?
i mean if the two of us getting together kills the friendship between the 3 of us
then there must be something very wrong....
do you understand what i am saying?
this is very important you know.....
you really got to ask this question
have i or poh really change that much during these 3 months we are together?
or are we still like before .... just that we are together most of the time now...
you know that i really do ADORE your best friend in LASALLE
and well..... you know also that i adore all my friends and as i have mentioned before
i would gladly lay down my future and life for all of you
so why suddenly so cold

YOU BURN A HOLE IN MY MIND


The endless blame that you set upon yourself
the tears that you shed every time you falter
dont you know or see that i am here to catch your fall
i gave you my everything and my all
choose you before my family
your my world
so only what you say or how you feel matters to me
yet a simple matter
and you cut me deep
deeper than you ever have.
"doesnt concern you so you dont know how i feel"
these words you said to me
these words so cold
as if i dont
i KNOW
in fact i think i know more than you do
how your hearts seems to shatter at the comments she made
how your heart aches and you dont know what to do
you feel like you've let her down
you feel like your not as good a friend that you thought you were
or that you promised you'd be.
know how i know?
well
i do coz every time you remain silent
walking beside me deep in your thoughts
every time you dont confide in me your feelings
i feel it
the moment you said the words i quoted above....
i felt like you felt when you read her words
so dont say that i dont know
for i know well.
i love you more than anything
your problems are mine as you may know by now
everything that you face
any hardships i would gladly join you
ask yourself have i?
you know i would
and i have......
i really do want you to trust more in me
to share more with me
you asked me to cheer you up
but how can i do that when you are so determined to hate yourself?

I THOUGHT I COULD


I spent so much time and well heart
believing in the things that i do
however at the time that i needed them the most
where did they go?
did anyone drop everything they were doing on the spot and rush over?
did anyone do anything regardless of cash or time to come to my aid?
i highly doubt so
i remember that there was a time when i was just waking up
and i got a call from a good friend.
this good friend wanted me to go someplace
and i really was too broke to go anywhere.....
but in the end i still did ......
after much consideration that is....
i still did.
Or when someone went for a holiday
and needed me to bring her stuff to school...
well i did.... at the expense of our holiday chalet time....
but we still brought it to school for her.....
and what thanks did we get?
NOTHING
Mr so and so had a really bad day...
i was already dying from my work day....
the next day i had more work and my pocket had a great big hole
what did i do?
i still went down ....
but where were they all just a few days ago?
BUSY

YOU KNOW THE DRILL

Suddenly i feel a pang of guilt.
Its not very well known that i have a family other than the cousins
that i seldom hang with any more.
Yes another side of the family.
My namesake.
How can i even be considered a LOW if i dont even mix with the LOWS?
I guess its all about the up-bringing then.
From young i was brought to my maternal side more often
The bonds formed there were unbreakable... or so i as a young kid thought.
Then came the time where a few visits to my paternal side became a lot less.
Yes the guilty years were years of war.
Not world war .... Hell no.....WORSE
Family war....
to be specific....... DADDY OR MUMMY WAR...
Yes thats the battle where no one ever wins...
and the children suffer....
But i side track from the real reason im posting.
Tag me if you wanna hear this story .......
but for now im gonna continue with the reason i posted this .
Any way. I never bonded much with my paternal side.
Though i did get along well with some of the cousins of my age group.
Others however still remain an enigma to me till this very day.
But the suddenly im thrown into this situation that really slaps me in the face.
My Grandmother passes away...
At the funeral i ask myself.
How have i been to this side of my family.
I'd like to say that i have been partial to them.
But the sad story is that i have not.
I can remember only a few of their names.
Even the names of my uncles and aunties i dont know.
I know the ranking of my uncles.... but thats coz my grandmother had only 3 sons.
But where the aunties are concerned ..... i am unsure.
My cousins .... well lets just say i get by know who i am close with.
And lastly my own grandmother.
I hardly know her........and from what i heard from the aunties and cousins
these few days.... SHE DOTED ON ME THE MOST !
I feel terrible....
TERRIBLE THAT I WAS UNABLE TO SHED A TEAR WHEN SHE LEFT
I wanted to... heaven knows i wanted to.....
There are a lot of ifs in my life and now i've just added another one...
IF ONLY I HAD BEEN CLOSER TO THEM.....
I will not let this be another regret in my life.

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN TANGO

I hate most cab drivers
Do you realize that cab drivers are aplenty now in singapore
Its as if we were swimming in a sea of cab drivers.
Everybody's' someone is a cab driver!
No offense to the majority of the cab drivers that is.
But the million dollar question is this.
Why then, if we are a country drowning in cabs,
are we still left waiting in the streets trying to hail cabs
that are busy but still fleshing the not occupied lights?
Or how about the customer service ?
Or rather the lack of it.
I mean i call up right?
I tell them my current location
they tell me to hold on
and then the freaking hang up!
WTF is that?
............................................................................

My eyes hurt
Went out without bringing spare eye solution today
so my eyes hurt like the whole day
..........................................................................
Later FOP......
with POH............
i love her so much
being with her makes the hell ive been through today
so worth while....
i love u baby!












KETTLE IS BLACK

A FEW THINGS TO SAY

And since a picture speaks a thousand words.......






Rudy and i served our nation



I still LOVE poh as much as if not MORE as the day this pic was taken





photo proof that RINA the BANANA bullies me.......





BILLY BOMBERS




BLACK KETTLE and her relative from CHINA @ HOME CLUB