Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you're a stunner
Hot..little figure,
Yes, you're a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..
Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..


Cause if I got you
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..
I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

All the world is looking at hong kong right now
Some claim this to be the scandal of ASIA
of epic proportions ! Slightly lesser than that of Paris' one night in her.
But hey.....
we forget....
Our asian stars are ARE human too
So what they are cast into the spot light
be it on or off screen
THEY ARE STILL HUMAN
prone to error
I mean whats wrong with taking pictures?
we all do
and whats wrong about taking nudes?
or even IN THE ACTs?
dont tell me none of you out there has never ever had the urge to?
the what the hell are porno sites for?
How many of us in our teenaged days wished for some starlet to just
be the ultimate object of our desires>
i mean we all wished pamala anderson would strip
and she gave us more than that right?
so what right do we have to point the blame at mr ed is on right now?
From what i can see he's got his fucking game on!
and of gillian is it>
whats wrong with her being caught in the nude?
i hear stories about girls abandoning her as their idol
saying stuff like they dont want this kinda of idol
hey im saying wake the fuck up !
your just pissed coz she got to do ed and you didnt.
hell thats not a bad thing.
id go brokeback for ed.....
well not really la but hes a good looking guy no?

DREAMS TO DIE OFF

Cant sleep very well
awoke to the sounds of a lingering nightmare
one that involves me with a very evil looking syringe
which was filled with this very pure cocaine
i could feel the needle stabbing at my poor thin skin
trying to pierce into my veins and unload its contents into me
vile toxic sweet heaven
i can still feel its taint
though nothing but a dream
it lingers ...
holding me like a lost lover
i still feel its grasps on my heart
In my dream i remember looking at my arm
at who was the one doing this to me
MYSELF
i stabbed into my arm
i murdered myself
the poison seeping through my veins
sentencing me to my own death
after so long
after being so free,

i awoke to the sound of my own breathing
the beating of my heart against the silence of my dark room
ALONE at home
alone as i have always been
in my dark thoughts
i thought i was over this
yet it haunts me
the last time these dreams came
was when i was locked up
only recently separated from my precious drugs
cold turkey brought about these night mares of addiction
and now why are they back?

the stress of chinese new year ?

..............the past is slain
please let it be so

NEED

I am not a bad person
i mean it really
i am not rock solid evil
neither am i a good person
a few of my ex girlfriends classify me as
"THE ONE I (they) MEET BEFORE THE ONE"
In a strange way
i somehow feel that this is very true
looking back
i see that i am NOT SENSITIVE
i am also not really a person who wears his heart on his sleeves
i am not one to really remember the detail of things
you can say that i am quite selfish
JUST THE TYPICAL GUY if you ask anyone around
But now times have changed
and i am a thing of the past
guys now are more good looking
going for the metrosexual look while i am still stuck with my fuck care appearance
the SNAG has killed everything for me

I got this girl
and shes the one
i do everything i can
at least to the extent that i can
sometimes more sometimes less
but still it does not seem to be enough

I struggle against myself to be a better person
but at times i just feel like giving up totally
i never seem to be any good at anything
call it low self-esteem call it whatever
for all i know i could be the biggest TURD is history
but i do try hard.

You see i got this girl and she is the world to me
but i just cant seem to make her smile anymore


hi there im 24 this year and i dont have shit to my name
maybe i have this rep about me.
but what can rep do? can it feed me ? cloth me ?
can it help me support my future family
i dont think so.

all i have acheived in this 24 years is the name "Pui Leng"
a dragon at heart but a useless one perhaps
am i to walk this path forever
cant i do more
?

CNY BLUES

Once again our hero ben is in the midst of yet another family holiday
he feels surrounded by the bright lights and warmth of family and friends
yet strangely he feels untouched by the infectious warmth
unknown to all he still feels somehow alone in his dark plight
unable to hold back his feelings of dispise of his lack of accomplishments
unspoken words that he keeps back
fighting to find a reason for his existance he slays his remaining self-worth
scaring himself with the greives of a previous life
tormented by his past actions he wails in despair
only to hope for a gentle saviour
not in the form of a dove or that everlasting omni-potent holy ghost
nay but in the form of a kind human
a gentle one who graces his battle weary heart
one who gives him peace
one who gives him warmth
in the midst of his struggles
he looks up into the heavens (or in this case to his side)
and he realizes that that one being is with him
and everything is better
everything is healed and forgiven
ready to start a new year
with newer battles to be fought
he lays his hands in the hands of his love
he rest his soul in her gentle beautiful eye....


POHLIN